A
few hours before midnight, and finally the tears stopped coming. James cannot exactly say when the tears
stopped rolling. He didn’t even notice the darkening shadows, the more frequent
booming sounds, the night sky slowly becoming ablaze.
The
video camera which has stopped playing hours ago, remain lying on the grass. James was resting his head on top of his
knees, fiddling with his wedding ring.
He
remembered.
We always go so well
together, Devon commented. She was lying on her back, buried on the thin
blankets, cradled in James’ arms. James
pulled her naked body towards his.
Just like mangga and
bagoong, James added.
Couldn’t you think of
anything else, Devon laughed.
Okay. Like tuyo and
champorado, James said, nuzzling his head in Devon’s hair, inhaling its
fragrance.
What, Devon
exclaimed, smacking his thigh.
Ouch, James reacted.
Why don’t you think of one then.
Like salted eggs and
tomatoes, Devon started.
Okay. Sounds good,
what else, James asked.
Hmmm. I guess puto
and dinuguan, Devon answered.
James started to kiss
Devon’s neck, the sensitive spot behind her ear.
What about suman and
tsokolate or coffee, Devon interrupted.
All this talk about
food is making me hungry, James answered. His lips became busy in planting soft
kisses in Devon’s face and neck.
Are you hungry, Devon
asked, her eyes fluttering because of the sensations her husband was giving
her.
I am hungry for something
else, James mumbled before claiming Devon’s lips.
You naughty man,
Devon countered before fully kissing James back.
They chuckled and
succumbed to their passion under their sheets.
James
closed his eyes hoping that it will be enough to keep the memories away. He heard a car pulling over, he looked behind
him and saw Sam’s car.
Sam
quietly sat beside him. The minutes passed, the gaps between the fireworks
shooting up in the sky becoming shorter.
Perhaps, it was almost midnight.
“Are
you still staying here,” Sam asked, glancing at James.
James
shook his head.
“No,”
James quietly answered. “I know she’ll
never come back.”
Sam
patted James’ back.
“How
can I...” James voice trailed, thinking of how he will survive the forthcoming
days without her.
“One
step at a time,” Sam encouraged.
James
looked at Sam and gave him a small smile.
“Thanks,”
James said.
Sam
did not reply, instead he remained seated besides James for a few more
minutes.
“I
can give you a ride home,” Same offered.
“You
go ahead, I want to watch the fireworks for a while,” James answered.
Sam
patted James again. He gave his best friend
a sad look, before pulling him for a hug. After Sam left, James continued
sitting and reminiscing.
What the hell are you
doing, James shouted on top of his lungs.
Devon was dancing to
the loud music while taking the soapy laundry out of the washing machine.
Doing laundry, Devon
shouted back.
Are you deaf, James
shouted again, he walked towards the blaring radio to turn it down but Devon
pulled him towards her.
Let’s dance, Devon
giggled.
And they danced in
the middle of their dirty laundry, water basins, and soap suds.
James
memories were interrupted by a loud bang.
A shower of red and green lights occupied the entire sky. It was followed by another shower of golden
and silver stars. The city started to
shake with the loud screams, hoots of the horn, steel water basins hitting the
floor. The entire city was celebrating.
James
sat on his spot and watched the sky turned into a beautiful battlefield of
colors and lights. After several
minutes, the noise started to turn down, the fireworks started to get fewer,
the sky slowly reverting to its blackness. The midnight has passed.
James
stood up and took a deep breath. He
shoved his hands into his pockets and walked away from the spot where he has
been waiting for the last few days. He started to walk towards his car which
was parked a little further down the road.
He was such in a hurry the last time, afraid that he would miss her
coming, that he just parked it on the sidewalk.
As
he slowly walks away from his waiting spot, he heard a loud bang. He turned around and saw a purple shower,
followed by dancing red lights. The
swirling lights continued to shoot up in the sky, one after the other. It glued him on his spot.
If
Devon would just be able to see this tonight, she would be over the moon.
If only...
As
if the universe has understood his deepest desire, a shimmering light spiralled
upwards before it exploded into a blue shower with streaks of silver. It was followed by another, then another, and
then another.
It
was Devon’s favourite color. It was the
most apt goodbye he could ever say to her.
He stared at the sky, hoping that Devon was able to see it. Amongst the clouds, she has the best seat.
Oblivious
to his surroundings, James did not notice another pair of flickering
lights.
****
There
are people who have to work even in holidays.
A delivery truck, full of food items was passing down the road they have
frequently passed. They have passed it
so many times, that the driver already knew the curves and bumps like the back
of his hand.
“This
is so bad,” said the driver. “It’s New
Year, and I am stuck here.”
He
expected someone to answer, but nobody answered. He looked at his buddy and saw his workmate
already dead to the world.
“Sonofa...”
he muttered. His workmate was able to
sleep and yet he was still driving.
He
was startled by the blast of fireworks.
He looked out of his window and saw the fireworks display starting in
the city below him.
He
was tired. He has been driving nonstop for three consecutive days. The boom and loud noise isn’t helping in
keeping his eyes open. In a curve
earlier, he has found himself closing his eyes a bit. It is dangerous, he thought of resting for a
bit once he found a wide flat area.
They
are going downhill and another curve was coming. He eased on his gas and tried to push his
brakes. He mentally noted to have his
truck’s brakes tested. Lately, he noticed that he has to step on the brakes
three times before the truck would actually stop.
The
driver was really becoming tired. His
eyes were becoming heavier, and then for a brief second, his eyes closed.
A
loud bang quickly shook him up. And then
he saw it, he was already off the road and swerving to the side instead. He thought he saw somebody ahead, but it was
useless. Everything was happening fast.
He
tried to hit his brakes.
One. Not enough.
Two.
One more.
But
it was too late.
****
James
watched the fireworks nearing its end.
He was about to go to his car when he finally noticed the lights. It was
coming fast.
Was
it a car? Was it a truck? Or was it just
his imagination?
The
next thing he knew he was flying.
Something has hit him and it has sent him on air. He heard a loud thud.
Something
hit the ground. Was it him? James has no idea.
He
felt nothing, he felt numb. They say that when accidents happen, you feel
pain. But all that he feels was
numbness.
Sir, oh my god, he
heard men voices. There was
shouting. He cannot understand what they
were saying.
Shit, he
heard more cursing.
He
was lying on the grass, the darkness made it difficult to see the blood seeping
through it. James tried to move, he
wanted to stand up. But he can’t. And
then he felt a sharp pain in his head, it felt worse than a headache.
James
was lying face-up, with the sky in his complete view. He thought he saw another pair of lights
streaking into the dark midnight sky.
And
then he remembered.
They were lying on
Devon’s hospital bed. It was before
Devon’s surgery for her trache.
James has managed to
inch himself beside Devon, despite all the wires and tubes attached to her.
“I love you,” Devon
whispered.
“And I love you too,”
James answered.
“Will you love me
forever?” Devon asked.
“Technically, I can’t
promise you forever. Nobody lives forever,” James joked.
“Stop being a
smart-ass,” Devon mumbled, but she was smiling.
“Will you love me for
the rest of my life?” Devon asked again.
James leaned forward
and whispered against her lips.
“I will love you for
the rest of mine,” James lovingly whispered before kissing her softly.
The
two streaks of lights erupted like cascading stars. A small star seems to be
falling towards James. It came nearer
and nearer.
They look familiar, James
thought.
As
the lights come closer, he saw a familiar face. James smiled. He was finally at peace.
The
blinding brightness was the last thing James saw before he closed his eyes.
END